Time to Say Goodbye

Delete, loose contact, erase from your mind
Empty, sad, and hollow inside

Better that way, nothing left to say
not a joke, no not a joke

hug goodbye, goodbye
time to cry, not a lie

going away, not going to stay

Pointless Self-pity

Am I not good enough?
Is that the reason why?

Well if that's the case
There is nothing left for me to do but cry

I sit here and wait
But slowly I am consumed with hate

Why do I care?
I shouldn't, you're never there

Yet time and time again
There is a sliver of hope

Then crushed by reality 
I start to breakdown

A vicious cycle that never ends
No broken ties does this mend

It's Kind of Sad

It's kind of sad how I let it get to me. It's kind of sad how I let it eat me alive. Relax, stay calm, it's not your fault. But it is it is my fault. It's kind of sad how letting people down makes me sad to the point of being sick. I want to puke, I want to cry and I feel ashamed. I shouldn't, but I do. I'm not proud of my work and I am embarrassed to this day. It's kind of sad and that's all I have left to say.