Bizarre

I feel as if I am walking to the beat of a different drum
Am I just a little off centered or is this the start of a change?

Anxiously waiting for nothing

Anxiously waiting for nothing, hoping for something.

Lost im my mind

I can spend hours just getting lost in my mind. One thought trails off, while another start to bloom.

A Bittersweet Symphony

A smile, a laugh, a hug goodbye
It was nice while it lasted
The memories were sweet
Wish I could go back
Just hit repeat

Mild Discontent

Time to Say Goodbye

Delete, loose contact, erase from your mind
Empty, sad, and hollow inside

Better that way, nothing left to say
not a joke, no not a joke

hug goodbye, goodbye
time to cry, not a lie

going away, not going to stay

Pointless Self-pity

Am I not good enough?
Is that the reason why?

Well if that's the case
There is nothing left for me to do but cry

I sit here and wait
But slowly I am consumed with hate

Why do I care?
I shouldn't, you're never there

Yet time and time again
There is a sliver of hope

Then crushed by reality 
I start to breakdown

A vicious cycle that never ends
No broken ties does this mend

Irrational Fears

The number 6. Funny thing is I was born on the 6th day of a month.

Wanderlust

   "Not all who wander are lost" 

   J. R. R. Tolkien

I constantly wander, that's what I do best

Just pick up and leave, forget about the rest

Content with just wandering, there is no place I need to be
I am at home, I am at peace, being with just me

               

The Magic Is In The Mystery

Not knowing, it's exciting to say the least. There are giggles, your tummy squiggles, and you can barely sit still. Hmm... could it be, or is it just me? If it's not, so what. But if it is, then what? I smile, I laugh, I blush and squirm. I am excited to see what else I can learn. You smirk and smile, I gab away. Listening intently as I get lost in words. I wonder, I wonder, do you wonder too? I wonder, I wonder because there is nothing else I can do.

It's Kind of Sad

It's kind of sad how I let it get to me. It's kind of sad how I let it eat me alive. Relax, stay calm, it's not your fault. But it is it is my fault. It's kind of sad how letting people down makes me sad to the point of being sick. I want to puke, I want to cry and I feel ashamed. I shouldn't, but I do. I'm not proud of my work and I am embarrassed to this day. It's kind of sad and that's all I have left to say.

Adventures

What's for breakfast? Hmmm I don't know. What's your major? Jour.... umm still deciding. The only thing I have ever been sure of in life  is my love for traveling. The experiences you create, the connections you make, and the feelings you get can never be replaced. Each is its own unique bundle of joy. There is a certain rush to it, going someplace new.  Not knowing what to expect but having imagined a trip a thousand of times before anything is set in stone. What should I pack? What kind of snacks should I bring on the airplane? I wonder what sort of trouble we can get into...  The picture above is from around two years ago when my roommate and I ventured off to France (England too but that's another story).  She had never been out of the country before and it had been a while since I had made a "big" trip like this. This was the big league and we were determined to make it.  Granted I had family on the receiving end. We boarded the plane with high hopes and set off on our adventure. I could probably write pages upon pages of our trip but I am just going to sum it up in a few random words and key phrases. French, no English, left our bags, bread, a LOT of cheese, Volvic,  Vichy, cowboy without trousers, Harry Potter, Kung Fu Panda , crust-less bread, seafood pizza (yuck!), champagne,  fishing, Turkish toilets, 5 hour car rides, Paris, ombres, Je ne parles pas francais, Le Pal, family, a lot of cheek kissing, bowling, hand print, Don't Stop the Party, that one french song, fun, really really hot, really really cold, pool, landscape, boys, tractors, town markets, passports with hidden stamps and more. All in all it was a successful trip full of memories that will last for ever. Just looking at this picture I took while visiting a castle in central France takes me back. That's the thing with travailing, even when the trip is over you relive it everyday.  Little things remind you of the good times and put a smile on your face. Happy travels! :]

New

      Try looking at things from a different perspective. It is amazing what you may find.

A Never Ending Journey

 

Searching for a purpose. Looking for somewhere to belong.